Do you ever just get tired of your life? I think I am finally starting to understand the idea of this thing they call a mid-life crisis. Of course I don’t think it’s truly a crisis, so it should be called something else. Perhaps it should be called “The Change”. Nope, that’s taken. Maybe a “Rerouting.” Regardless of what you want to call it, let’s take a look at life….
The first five years of your life, you’re a child without a care in the world. Then from ages five to approximately 18 you enter school. Even though one may think these years are all the same – they truly are not. Your life changes each and every year with each grade you enter into. Of course it changes more drastically when you change school levels – elementary school to middle school, middle to high school. Then perhaps you enter college. Another change as life continues to show you new avenues, new adventures.
Then you enter adulthood. Here is where life starts to go different ways for most people. Some may stay single longer. Some may choose to settle down early. But whichever road you choose, there seems to come a point where you end up doing the same thing day in and day out, year after year. There is no more change. There is no more excitement. Life becomes stale. Let’s be honest. 20 + years at a job? Hope you truly love your job, or at least your career choice. 20 years or so of possibly having kids in the home? Well there’s a little excitement that is more stressful than fun the majority of the time.
So when does a “mid-life crisis” hit? Well I would imagine after 20 years of doing the same thing over and over again (you know that definition of insanity) the doldrums of life set in. You may start counting down to your twenty years at age 20. Maybe at age 30. Because everyone’s life is different, it would only reason that the point of feeling that one’s life sucks would hit at a different point. But I bet it will always hit at some point in a person’s life.
Now honestly, with all the moving I’ve been doing my entire life (the most recent being 8 years ago), it would stand to reason that there has been plenty of change in my life up until 8 years ago and I should be good for at least another 12 years. But that’s just not the case. So maybe it might have a little something to do with age. I’m 41. I don’t want to live past 80. Yes, by definition I would be in the middle of my life. And I’m tired of it damn it. Is this all there is? No wonder people used to die at much younger ages!